Eraser Party

During the week of June 22nd, my internet connection was totally wonky, so I went over to my sister’s place to work since her internet connection was fine. Before I worked, I took the liberty of taking a photo of her Eraser Party. Perhaps I should arrange my collection in the same manner too and take photos, apart from having them as props for my Pink Flamingo Pals XD 

Today is One of Those Nice Days

This morning I was supposed to wake up at 7, but I was unusually sleepy and exhausted, probably because of yesterday’s midterms and work, as Kiwi-chan pointed out. So, since I still did not have ANYTHING listed in my planner for today and the following days, I decided to sleep as much as I wanted, then just work and study after that. 

Plus, it was a little cold in the morning so I wanted to tuck in and sleep and think of サイバちゃん。。。

So I slept some more and got up a few minutes before 10, did yoga, then had a banana and hot Milo as I checked my mail and visited some games. After that I planned the rest of my day until Thursday. So basically I just worked and studied all afternoon, after which I found myself suddenly with free time, and I realize that today’s weather has been doing things to me.

It has been a rainy, gloomy, and a very wet day, and though it would make most people sleepy and lazy, it makes me so alive. My senses have been extra sharp and I have been extra calm, except for occasions when the music would make my heart race, or when certain changes in my wallpaper would take place XD (I set my desktop wallpaper to change every five minutes, and they are all images of やぎちゃん, and some images are just… killers. 

So anyway, I’ve been so enjoying the weather. It makes me alive and light and happy and everything. Not happy like, hyper, but just quietly happy. It makes me think of サイバちゃん too and it makes me WISH for him SO MUCH MORE but so far, I think I am becoming even better in keeping the emotions at bay, and not letting them rule my entire day, my thoughts, my actions, my plans, and not letting them distract me from work or school. 

I love the weather. My windows are open and the curtains are drawn apart to let the chilly wind come in. The sky is somewhat like Morrowind again, and it makes me wish for サイバちゃん, but the gloomy weather is so not making me gloomy. I just love it. I wish I could spend days like this with サイバちゃん。I wish he were thinking of me (^.^)

This day is a really nice one. It is happiness. 

Better *_*

So, after over a couple of hours, I started feeling somewhat better. 

Partly it was because of text messages exchanged with Nova, who is clearly a breathing living human being, and of the chats with my sister who just woke up from a nap/finished doing chores before going out with Mao. I think by that time too, the tides were shifting or something connected to it, and then I could hear my parents talking downstairs in light conversational tones, plus the house was starting to rest and ease into the weekend, so I guess I also started feeling less anxious. After a while I decided to have a tiny bit of dinner, then had a small chat with my mom, and then I took another bath. Halfway through my bath I realized I was feeling a little better. So now, I am ready to work, and the idea of a weekend is clearer to me now. 

So now, I will work on a current project. While wearing my favorite jimjams and having my hair up. And of course, there will be music. (Right now it’s “Great Divide” by The Cardigans.)

Morning! (^^,)

So I woke up after a full sleep, and I immediately knew I have lots of energy to spare XD So I did my usual practices, then did yoga, then had a slow, leisurely breakfast over Lirael (^^,) Then I prepared coffee and went to start checking stuff and working. The weather’s great because it is so sunny yet it isn’t so humid anymore. The temperature has been balanced by the recent rains and the cloudy days. 

Will get back to work now (^^,) 

Productive Peachness

Today is so productive! (^^,) Plus I notice how lately, things are clearing up and SPACE in its various forms are becoming available to me and to better things (^^,)

So apart from taking the big steps I mentioned yesterday, today also covered a lot of “harvesting” (this being The Year of Harvest and all). 

Morning, I was able to stick to my To Do list, and then I worked, and I finished early, so I was able to move everything else to an earlier time, though one of my chores took time, but that’s okay. So anyway, I was also able to stick to my To Do list for after working time (partly with the help of some Idol # 3 XD). I was able to clean one of my closets and found that I have more space in the uppermost part than I thought I did. Then, I was finally able to clean and check the computer I am selling, and was able to list down the specs and take out everything from my room, which means getting back some space in my room which used to be occupied by the CPU and monitor.

After cleaning up and everything, I took my nth bath, had dinner, then began studying for the final exams. I just studied for a couple of hours because I’ve been having a fitful sleep since Sunday night, and I always had kanjis and picture drawings in my dreams, where I had to tell if something is ue or shita or naka or tonari or whatever, while writing kanji in the air. SO weird. So anyway tonight I was able to finish reviewing and practice writing Kanji, further to the review and practice I did last Sunday >.< I have to work hard because I get confused when it’s time to write them or to read them as part of a cluster of kana. So, tomorrow I start reviewing my notes, then the book, then all the “bunch of papers” (as Keita-san put it). It is all organized now, I just need to go through all of the materials >.< 

So anyway I just had to write a bit about my productive day because I have some energy left and I need to use it up so I won’t stay awake til 3 am. I’m kind of… hyper. I can feel it.

I didn’t forget this part, I just didn’t want to lump it up with the chorey parts and work parts >.< I was able to resolve another thing today, and I think it’s good because I was able to let it out of my system and I no longer feel any trace of anger or annoyance, and I am guessing it’s good to go back to how our friendship was before, and I know I sound weird now because this just seemed to pop out of nowhere. In a nutshell, of course I’d still get those occasional Black Hole moments but generally things have somewhat been ironed out and now all is just… safe.

I really believe so far I’ve done good things and have been cleaning up >.< I guess it would really pay to be my version of a Third Assistant Librarian, and my Disreputable Dog will be the music that makes my heart beat fast - my companion at any time (^^,)

Of course though, something will have to come, I mean good things, not Stilken. XD

Time to sleep! Oyasumi >.<

Last, I realize I still have a bag of minty kisses. The last batch of all of it. They have stopped multiplying a long time ago and will only be left to rot in the bag, so I am sending the last of them to where minty kisses ought to go. So I reach in and send them out to their appropriate inappropriate recipient. And then there will be none, and everything will be much sober, though it would be a nice kind of sober, the one without headaches. So yeah, moving forward

I’m still WIDE awake but I am sure I will start to relax once I have a book in my hands (^^,)

Tomorrow has Cake! (^^,)

I need to water my plant now >.< I almost forgot. Oyasumi. (wave)

*iPod to my ears* 

Kanji Game XD

In class today we had a Kanji game, and it was SUPER fun XD Of course, deadma na kung bata ang kalaban ko - it was all about WRESTLING (and screaming for us girls) for the right Kanji card XD I have this funny memory in my head of screaming and grabbing one of the Kanji cards from Ryoma-chan XD Anyway our team won XD We took home Dairy Milks XD 

Prior to that we had our famous (at least in our class), or one of the famous dialogues, the one with Miraa-san and Kimura-san XD My partner was Louie-san and at first he was decided to be as stoic and spaced out as the actual Miraa-san. So we went to the front and brough props (cell phones) and he rang my phone to make it realistic XD

However, when the part came for Kimura-san to decline Miraa-san’s invitation for the date, Louie-san started acting weepy and crushed, and unintentionally turned into a goat XD

Today was super fun (^^,)

Well, every class is fun but today was super because of the Kanji game excitement XD And it has been extra fun ever since the invisible barriers were taken away unknowingly by A Fateful Day XD

So anyway, one thing I learned was to target the bombugu-ya XD

By the way, and this is totally unrelated to my Japanese topic XD I had my haircut yesterday XD I was supposed to have it done by the usual hairstylist I go to but I didn’t know it was his off, but it was the only time I could get a haircut, and besides it was more of just a sidebangs cut. So when my parents and sister went to the mall, I tagged along and just decided to go to any salon I find For The Meantime. Then I found this salon which I think is run by a Korean couple, and it was the Korean guy who cut my hair, and I totally love what he did to me XD For a while there I felt like a momoko doll whose hair was being styled for something huge. Loooove love love love. Of course now I look more everydayish, but yesterday I stepped out of the salon feeling like… a doll. XD In a good way of course XD I even LOVE the way he tied back my hair in a ponytail (I also realized no one has tied my hair up in a ponytail for a long time XD) since I came in wearing a ponytail, except he twirled some of the hair at the sides of my head, which, amazingly, suddenly looked perfect XD And then each time he asked “Do you like it?” I wanted to scream “I love it!” XD 

So back to stuff NOT related to my hair, I am also glad I decided to work today XD Earlier today I was feeling a little ill but when I came back home I decided to work offline so I was able to bring the laptop (I am using a temporary computer because my real computer is in the Computer Hospital) to my bed and I worked as the weather changed from hot and sunny to rainy and chilly. So, I was able to finish work today and was able to do a lot, and enjoyed the weather while I was at it.

The rainy season has started I guess. I love it too! I love the heat of the summer but I love the chill of the rainy days too (^^,)

By the way, Aisha Duo and rainy weather equal Perfection. (^^,)

*Love love love* (^^,)

(Note to self: I am trying to ignore my SLIGHT, oh so SLIGHT fixation on a person template currently residing in my head. I guess it helps, though, that someone Super Super Kawaii is balancing that. So it is all just about the Happy Feelings XD) 

Early Day (^^,)

Today, I started my day really early (^^,) I mean not because I had to, but just because I wanted to, and was able to XD

Well last night I slept really early (^^,) I was in bed by 10:30! I just read a bit of Sabriel then fell asleep instantly! Partly because it was a very tiring day due to the elections. >.< Sunday night, I had my Sunday syndrome and was wide awake until around 2 AM. I woke up at 7, then went to vote, where we had to spend precious time looking for our line. Then we spent 3.5 hours in line. Then we had lunch, then went home, and I worked for over three hours, did some meditation, then studied for Nihongo. After dinner time I was really sleepy already, so I shut down my computer and watched “The Indian Witch Hunt” at Nat Geo, then watched the Wanderlei and Liddell match in UFC Unleashed. Then I washed up, read a bit of Sabriel, then slept.

So, I was awake at 6:06 (^^,) 

I brushed my teeth, washed my face, chugged down Gatorade (ganun kainit ang panahon - I wake up thirsty), then practiced kihon and kata, then went to do yoga. Before 8 AM, I was already having boiled eggs for breakfast (^^,) Nice start (^^,)

Our Midterms Exam is Done!

Yay (^^,)

Done with the midterms exam (^^,) I think I totally sucked at the listening portion, but I feel that I did okay with the other parts XD *hopeful* 

Then I rewarded myself and shopped for some stuff, including some stuff for my bathroom, so my wash area now looks more organized (^^,)

And now I work >.<

First Day of Work

So it’s my first day of work in the new home ^.^ I didn’t work yesterday - I was cleaning and moving things and arranging my space all day. I moved here Monday night, after working in the empty house and saying goodbye to the trees and the house itself.

For some reason, I easily felt at home even on my first night ^.^ 

I also feel that when I left the old house, I left many other mental and emotional baggages ^.^

Echoes

Yes, echoes. XD

Everything has been transferred to the other house. All that’s left here are my computer, computer desk, and chair. And electric fan. And everything that has to do with my internet connection. Tomorrow the lines will be transferred so until today, I work here. 

Because the house is empty, everything echoes!! Even my typing and when I put things on the table. Then tonight, I will go back to the other house and sleep there.

Later I will say my goodbyes to the trees and to the house >.<

Cozy Home

Just got home from… home XD

I mean I just got home to our current ohme with my dad. We drove my mom to the other house. I also brought some of my stuff already and measured where I will place my bed. I also chose a curtain for my room and decided where to place the TV and other stuff. 

I also discovered a black cat (Black Cat!) at the corner of the street. He was calling out like my friend Cosi, and I think he also glared at me. I have yet to be sure though XD

The other house feels cozy already (^^,) Perhaps it’s also because it’s the first time I went there at night, plus the wind outside was cold, so everything felt pleasantly summery (^^,) 

Tomorrow morning, the moving-truck will take everything already except my computer and everything connected to my internet connection. So tomorrow after class, I will probably go home to the other house, then come here to work, then go home to the other house to sleep. Tuesday morning, the cable and internet lines will be transferred. So, everything else that’s left here will be taken there early Tuesday morning. 

Tomorrow evening I will say my farewell to the house, and to the backyard trees T.T Huling sleep ko na pala dito tonight *_* The room that housed all my personalities for the past nine years. *sigh* Hehe biglang nag-emote XD Sana the other house will witness better relationships and better people ^.^ 

Finally, Charlie’s XD

So finally, nakapunta na ako ng Charlie’s XD Friends from everywhere have gone there and asked me if I’ve tried it, because it’s just a few minutes’ walk from our current house. However, ako yung malapit, ako yung never pang nakapunta. So last night after kendo (there was shiai and it was my first time to fight with a guy, some nice person named Jackson; I lost after what seemed to be ages of being inside a Pugon because of the heat), Allan, Ziggy, my sister, and I went because Zig wanted burgers, and we wanted to eat someplace near lang because my sister still had to work and I had to pack. 

So, I got the Angus with fries and it is Totally Happy Food XD 

Haiku Hirugohan

Last Friday, I spent the WHOLE day with my sister (^^,) We had class in the morning, then we went to Haiku for Japanese lunch. We ordered uni sashimi, yasai itame, gohan, agedashi tofu, grilled sanma, and chicken yakitori. (^^,) Happy Haiku Lunch!

After that we went around Greenbelt for a bit, then went home to our house where she indulged herself in Mall World as I tried to clean up my room. She stayed til dinner time, and then left afterward so I was able to finally work >.< 

Saturday was kendo, and I somehow felt that I just might be rising from the dead. Or so I think. Have yet to see. 

Nihongo Class Heals XD

Okay, I KNOW that sounded weird XD

But seriously, my last two classes resulted, or perhaps, preceded, major improvements regarding my health. 

I don’t know if it’s because I’m happy when I’m in class, and I’m excited to learn, and I’m laughing a lot, and I am relaxed at the same time, but I do feel great right before, during, and right after class. So last Sunday, I’ve been sick, right, and I hardly slept Sunday night, and was quite feverish when I went to class Monday morning. After Monday class, I noticed that my temperature became lower, though I was still experiencing bodily pains. By Tuesday, the fever was gone, though my headache remained and my sore throat was worse, and my spasmic stabbing muscle pains still occurred, though less frequently. 

Tuesday night I did my homework, and felt more relaxed, so I was able to sleep, and only woke up about 20 minutes before my alarm went off. Then this morning, I was still having a hard time swallowing solid food, but I had breakfast before class. So, class started, and when we took our 10-minute break, I took my meds, and I realized that the sore throat was just, almost gone. I didn’t have a hard time swallowing my medicine at all. By the time class finished, my bodily pains were gone, and my headache occurs much less frequently than before. 

So, it might just be a coincidence of course Xp But in any case, I was thinking it might be the class because I am really enjoying each one so much (^^,) And usually right after class I just suddenly feel much better from my sickness XD 

So, even if I wasn’t able to go to kendo today (I was planning to, last weekend), okay na rin that I feel better now. I hope I’d be fully well enough to attend on Saturday. But tomorrow, normal skeds na ulit! Full hours plus makeup hours >.< I just hope I get what I will be requesting for *crosses fingers*

O_o

So, I’ve been sick since last night T.T Spasmic stabbing muscle pains every few minutes or so, super sensitive extra warm skin, hellish throat condition, and headaches and dizziness T.T

I am guessing it was because my body suddenly “rested” or let go of all its defenses after last week’s super full schedule, plus there is the stress of moving out, plus the stress of That Particular Bag of Stuff in my room, and the things it entails, plus the line and address transfers and everything, plus the furniture I will need to sell and any new ones I will need to buy. Times likes this, I wish there was a version of Nikaido-san making hot porridge >.<

Anyway, so, I will try to post what I can from the past few days. Hope I get much much better soon >.<

Happy Yoga

Tonight was one of those moments when I truly enjoyed my yoga (^^,) I mean, I normally do, but usually as I go about my day, the feeling I got from my practice has already dissipated. Tonight though, (I don’t know if it’s because I did today’s yoga in the evening instead of early morning) I felt much more relaxed and “peaceful” after yoga than I normally do. And it was so great that the feeling has carried over until now, and the activities I did after yoga seemed more fun, or the joy of doing them were sort of, more magnified. (Plus! The bothersome pain on my left shoulder is gone, as well as the pain on my right arm! XD)

Happiness (^^,) Or, as someone would put it, peachness! XD 

So, because of tonight’s happy yoga, I will REARRANGE my entire schedule for next week XD (Ang dumi na ng planner ko I swear. Hindi bale cute naman ichura nya sa labas. Malay ba nilang puro correction strips sa loob XD Note: Ang cute din ng correction wipe.)

So anyway back to yoga and skeds. I am guessing it’s also because it’s a holiday, so I didn’t feel hurried. I admit that sometimes I do the corpse pose at the shortest possible time because I have work to do or I’m just feeling like I need time for other things. So, I will be rearranging my schedule so that I can allot a bigger chunk of time (probably as big as the chunk of chocolate I gave to… itself XD) to my yoga, so that I wouldn’t have to hurry or be distracted by the thought of Time. That’s pretty tough, since my Japanese classes are starting on Monday, and I’d have Wednesdays half day, which means my working hours on other week days are extended. So I’m also thinking of doing my yoga in the afternoon or evening instead of morning, to really avoid feeling hurried. Anyway I will be fixing it this weekend. (^^,) 

So I am Back

No, the nap mentioned in the previous entry was not a 5-day nap. It only lasted about half an hour. 

But yes I was away for like 5 days, and thanks to my dear friend Jen, and to Ade, because now my blogs are fixed >.< 

And no I was not asleep the whole time XD I could have been, but I wasn’t XD 

Blog later. Work first. 

Cake Day

4moggs of the Disheveled Bunny (whom we suspect was either my son or my twin sister in my past life) told me that today is CAKE DAY in their office @_@ For a while I wanted to work there XD However, since I know I’m only in it for the cake, I will have my own CAKE DAY each month XD CAKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD

Tsukareta

>.<

Sometimes when I am tired like this I wish I can

just

succumb

to

someone’s

embrace.

T.T

Anyway, pagod lang yan. Kasi naman di ba. Sana lahat kayo matino. 

Haha biglang nag-angst. 

Anyway, again, pagod lang yan. Ang katapat nyan ay:

• Clutter-clearing (baka naman mawalan na ko ng gamit nyan lmao) 
• Nice warm bath
• Kanji

Of course, it would still be nice if the knight in shining armor came riding in his valiant horse. Or the knight in bogu riding an Audi. Muhahahahhaa. Or an available knight in bogu riding some vehicle I dare not mention. Or kahit simpleng Prince of Persia lang. (LMAO) Prince of Persian cat. Mogget? Isdatchu? Didn’t you have a Persian parent? (Mogget replies: ngaw.)

I think this is all partly due to shift that I sense on an ethereal level. Like some big shift is brewing, carrying with it big, unexpected changes which are not a bad thing, but are disorienting in its own fashion. 

So, time for clutter-clearing. 

*sighs the way Punchy sighs in Petville* (or, well, all Petville pets do that)

Falling into Place

Today, there are some unexpected good things, and many things are falling into place (^^,) 

Simple joys, which are significantly helpful to me now >.<

I uttered several silent yays when I received an unexpected set of holidays - I’ve already taken them but now I know I won’t need to make up! And this is a huge thing for me. (^^,)

I was planning to step out and make some urgent purchases, and just in time, my sister came by and had to run some errands, and so I was able to step out and get what I needed. 

Certain things are sinking in to my head and I would still think it’s a good time to start something “new,” for lack of a better term, with new music in the background. This isn’t all ironed out yet but I am currently consciously following a drawn Tarot this time. I have to keep in mind what I’ve been told. I have become careless so I’m like knocking on my head, checking to see if there’s any brain left. I can’t articulate this yet. In any case, time to wake up. 

Speaking of waking up, I slept with four of my worry dolls, and they were all great. When my head hit the pillow, and the thoughts started creeping in, they seem to just have been pulled away and I slept peacefully, and only woke up when my alarm went off. Then, things just started going right, like they are all naturally falling into their rightful places. 

I admit though that I made a boo boo again, but no matter. I guess there are some things one has to go through because it’s part of the path. But so far, everything that is coming today are things I would exactly need.

*listens to my new playlist*

Irregular Eating

I keep forgetting to write. 

Last Tuesday, before I packed my things and went over to my sister’s place, my mom said she noticed my recent unusual eating habits. She said I always eat late and eat like a dying person. She was guessing perhaps it’s about some stuff in my head that I’m anxious about. 

I realized then that my eating habits have become quite “irregular” and I frequently feel nauseous. :T

Still experiencing it now. But I’m grateful that I’ve also been feeling a little tired so I get to sleep at night, around 1 AM, so it’s not as bad as my insomnia-week when I would fall asleep at 4, 5, or 6 AM. 

Today, I just felt like hiding from everyone, like going AWAY for the next four weeks or so. And just be by myself. I just feel like hiding and disappearing for a bit. 

Right now, I am guessing it is partly due to my Plan-related anxiety, plus I had anxious thoughts about work, plus there is a growing need in me to get away from the Third Seat, or just return things to how they were before, before all these… minty moments. 

However, in reality, I cannot just hide away, and I have work to do, and another work to do, and the Plan has yet to be fulfilled, and I have to face whatever happens after, and I have to deal with it if there is no opportunity to actually do it, among millions of other things to do. 

I am keeping my running shoes in sight. 

@_@

I slept at 6 AM this morning. Was up all night T.T

I guess partly it’s the plan, plus the magic of cherry blossoms, plus my own struggles, plus the start of another work week (as of now, though, some ideas are brewing in my head). 

Would You Like Some Onigiri?

One of my “onigiri memories” was when I ate a HUGE piece with my hands, as Koji-san taught me (^^,) It was the nth dish served that night and I sat across Koji-san, and a lot of them couldn’t eat any more. It was one of the funnest and happiest nights I had in Tokyo (^^,) I will always feel grateful to Koji-san for that (^^,) How about you? What are your associations with onigiri?

Cherry

I was searching about Brazilian Agates then I came across 

cherrytreebeads.com

with a cherry logo

Hello Internet

So internet connection was down for 24 hours - from 12 noon yesterday til 12 noon today. It was a holiday yesterday but I guess most of my crops are DEAD.

Anyway, yesterday, I finished a transcription sideline so yay I can get back to running and to studying Nihongo during my free time  

Last night I was planning to go to sleep around 12 but anxiety came over me again and I started this long monologue which is partly a conversation with the Universe. I was thinking of asking for clearer signs but I don’t know what the signs I was supposed to ask for should tell me, and then I realized that I’m afraid to find out some things, and then I realized how confused I am, though I was able to identify some elements which make me confused and anxious. In the end, I was starting to get sleepy, that was around 2 am, so I just decided to draw a rune. They sat in front of me since 1 am but I was also not able to draw one right away because I wasn’t sure what I was drawing it for. So, finally when I got tired of the monologue and the overthinking, I drew a rune for the part of me which cheers for the magic of cherry blossoms. It was a very promising rune, yet I also realized I am afraid to take further steps. It tells me though, of jumping into the void with empty hands. (Hay. Eto na naman ako.) I will post the rune later. And then there’s a part of me that can’t wait for Saturday, yet afraid of it. 

Anyway, work first. Will adjust my time today and work from 1 PM plus 8 hours na lang because of weirdo internet connection.

Full Friday

Yesterday, I had the last of my Cervarix vaccine shots - so it’s all done yay I thought the last was the most painful of all but I was quite okay after, unlike when I had my 2nd shot, when my arm felt stiff and painful for the next couple of days. So I was able to work straight, though I started feeling a little queasy towards the evening so I took a nap. I was also probably too tired. I enjoyed work yesterday though.

Then, I finished a transcription task, and there’s only one more to go, which I intend to work on during the long weekend. (I totally forgot that Monday is a holiday!)

Also, I finished The Subtle Knife! Super bitin!!!! I will read The Amber Spyglass starting tonight

For the meantime, the usual Saturday stuff.

Tea in The Garden

I spent some time from my lunch break having my green tea in our backyard (^^,) The wind and the sun felt really nice and everything was quiet except for the rustling of the leaves which fell from the trees and the chirping of the birds (^^,) I went back inside to get my digicam then took my nth cup of green tea out again to take some photos. Will post them next time because I’m very very busy this entire week. I was hoping to take a photo of the centipede which I always, always see whenever I step out, but he wasn’t around today. 

So Now, I Work

So now, given my full day, I will be working tonight til wee hours to complete today’s supposed work. I cannot drink coffee because I will fall asleep. Perhaps the cherry black tea might help. Jaa ne!

Yay Cakes :)

While I worked the entire afternoon, my parents went to the mall and when they got back home, my dad has bought me cakes and pastries

One Nostalgic Morning

So I woke up hungry and had McDonald’s breakfast delivered As I started work early, I was drinking coffee and listening to Nina Cardie (The Cardigans ) I realized how nostalgic this can be. Lol. The taste of McDonald’s coffee, the gloomy weather, and Country Hell

System Warning

Last night, at some point after dinner, my throat started to feel sore and my muscles achey and my skin warm. I knew I was starting to get sick and realized that I have been so stressed all day, my mind very very tired. So, even if I extended my work hours, I decided that I will just do a bit of homework after and then go to bed right away. However, I enjoyed the research I was doing for work so my mind started to relax and I was still able to do the difficult parts of my homework. By the time I went to bed, though, I was so exhausted that I immediately fell asleep. It has been like that lately, which is good, but last night was quicker, probably because I wasn’t feeling too well. In any case, I think my bodily systems were warning me against too much thinking and killing of the self. It was good, though, that I woke up feeling much better this morning. I can feel the thoughts close by, though, and I am doing my best to keep them at bay. I have to focus on the stuff I need to do.  

Sims 1 OST as BGM

For some odd reason, I find it quite motivating to work while the Sims 1 OST plays in the background, particularly those under the Buy, Build, and Latin modes  

(Plus, it’s energizing to hear the constant flow of cash in Cafe World.)

:D

Lack of Sleep = Drunken State

About a week ago, my sister was on her 2nd week of hardly any sleep because she was working on a major presentation to a client. One day she came to the house and worked in my room because she needed an awake environment, food, and internet connection. 

Now I read somewhere that severe lack of sleep is just like being totally drunk. And she was totally like one. 

Our conversation went like this: (We were both working on our computers.)

My sister: May kape ka dyan? Ano kape mo?

Me: Yup. UCC. 118.

She didn’t reply, and continued typing something. After a while:

My sister: Ano kape mo dyan? May kape ka ba?

Me: Meron nga. UCC 118. 

My sister: Pahingi naman.

So I stood and left to make coffee. I placed it beside her and then we continued to work.

After a while:

My sister: Uy ang sarap ng kape mo ah. Anong kape ‘to?

Me: Grrrr. UCC nga. 118. Yung color green. Lasing ka ba?

She didn’t reply and was just drinking the coffee.

After a while: 

My sister: Ang sarap. Anong kape ‘to? Ah oo. Yung UCC. 117? Yung red ba ‘to?

(lmao.)

Goob Mording

So I woke up with a sore throat and a cold.

I’ve had this actually since yesterday, but I thought it was only my lack of sleep and fatigue. So I slept early last night and woke up after 8 hours. I don’t feel feverish anymore, but my head still feels swollen and my throat scratchy.

ANYWAY. I have to be well ASAP because I can’t miss class tomorrow morning and there is shiai in the afternoon, unless I don’t fight. But then again… Okay better not to think about tomorrow yet. It’s only Friday morning and I’ve work to do.

Finished

So, last night, I continued reading the House of Many Ways and finished it It was really nice I’m going to read The Golden Compass next  

It’s noon and I’m still working here at my onee-san’s place. I didn’t go home for lunch or for afternoon work as I initially planned, because I realize that I am no longer as agitated as the last time I worked here alone. I guess I’m much more busy now and preoccupied by daily stuff so that the height of this place isn’t causing me agitation in my… alone-ness Plus, I’ve kissed Mogget about a hundred times  

I took a photo of him and will post it here next time I log in at my computer at home. I also took some pics of Reina and the dangerous cats here. 

Sushi Magnets

I was cleaning up my gmail and found this photo of magnets… (Please click to continue reading this post.)

Sally’s Spa, Live Version :D

I wasn’t able to write yesterday because I got up a little late… (Please click to continue reading this post.)

Snooze

So far, I am able to manage getting up right on time, except perhaps for a couple of times… (Please click to continue reading this post.)

Last Day

It’s my last day to report to the office XD

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Ouch

I didn’t go to work today because I woke up late and disoriented… (Please click to continue reading this post.)

Walky Talky

I was going through a list of Japanese items for sale and I came across this snack:

When I came back from Japan… (Please click to continue reading.)

Last Year, at Cyma

Last night, at the meeting in the office, our CEO mentioned… (Please click to continue reading this post.)

Bento :)

Today, my dad and I picked up my sister from her place… (Please click to continue reading this post.)

Sleepover

Last night I had an online meeting… (Please click to continue reading this post.)

Moved Into the IT Room

Earlier this week, I moved from my working area… (Please click to continue reading this post.)

The Meeting Went Well :)

My 6 PM meeting last night… (Please click to continue reading this post.)

6 What?

Sorry but I just need to write about it. 

Yesterday… (Please click to continue reading this post.)

Just One More Month

I have exactly a month left in my current full-time job.

And tomorrow… (Please click to continue reading this post.)

The New Enemy

I woke up scared from last night’s dream. I was relieved it was all just a dream.

It was in the office, except that everything looked different, from the layout to the furniture to the divisions in each room. It was supposed to be morning and I just came up my designated floor and there was my Japanese boss (today’s my last day under him because I will be under the IT Manager starting tomorrow) with his assistant, and they were talking to one of the clerks, who was asking him about my schedule for the attendance records. Then my boss spoke in Japanese… (Please click to continue reading this post.)

Again, After a Long Time :)

I stayed home from work today because of my appointment this morning with the doctor. Then this afternoon… (Please click to continue reading this post.)