Days of the Week, Mixed Up

私の毎日

２週間前に日本語の学校のしゅくだいがありました。

毎日のポスターを作りました。これは私のです。

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Today is One of Those Nice Days

This morning I was supposed to wake up at 7, but I was unusually sleepy and exhausted, probably because of yesterday’s midterms and work, as Kiwi-chan pointed out. So, since I still did not have ANYTHING listed in my planner for today and the following days, I decided to sleep as much as I wanted, then just work and study after that. 

Plus, it was a little cold in the morning so I wanted to tuck in and sleep and think of サイバちゃん。。。

So I slept some more and got up a few minutes before 10, did yoga, then had a banana and hot Milo as I checked my mail and visited some games. After that I planned the rest of my day until Thursday. So basically I just worked and studied all afternoon, after which I found myself suddenly with free time, and I realize that today’s weather has been doing things to me.

It has been a rainy, gloomy, and a very wet day, and though it would make most people sleepy and lazy, it makes me so alive. My senses have been extra sharp and I have been extra calm, except for occasions when the music would make my heart race, or when certain changes in my wallpaper would take place XD (I set my desktop wallpaper to change every five minutes, and they are all images of やぎちゃん, and some images are just… killers. 

So anyway, I’ve been so enjoying the weather. It makes me alive and light and happy and everything. Not happy like, hyper, but just quietly happy. It makes me think of サイバちゃん too and it makes me WISH for him SO MUCH MORE but so far, I think I am becoming even better in keeping the emotions at bay, and not letting them rule my entire day, my thoughts, my actions, my plans, and not letting them distract me from work or school. 

I love the weather. My windows are open and the curtains are drawn apart to let the chilly wind come in. The sky is somewhat like Morrowind again, and it makes me wish for サイバちゃん, but the gloomy weather is so not making me gloomy. I just love it. I wish I could spend days like this with サイバちゃん。I wish he were thinking of me (^.^)

This day is a really nice one. It is happiness. 

Happy Weekend

My happy weekend has started right this morning when I woke up, and it is still on-going right this moment (^^,) Beginning my super-laid-back weekend (She & Him in the background; earlier it was Natalie Merchant.) 

So this morning I woke up early, but decided to get back to sleep and savor the wind coming in through my (newly cleaned) windows (I cleaned them last Thursday and changed the curtains too.) then woke up about a couple of hours later. Then I did my yoga, had breakfast, and blogged and surfed like crazy. For the past couple of weeks, I have hardly visited my blogs nor checked out my personal messages and pages because I made some changes to my schedule and how I work around them. Even after my previous ended (my last day was last Wednesday), I’m still as busy as ever, with my schedule full. It’s a nice kind of busy though - very productive and still somewhat flexible, not the hectic kind that makes you want to drop, literally drop, everything, and just absent-mindedly walk off into the sunset. XD

So anyway I caught up on a favorite blog of mine and updated this blog and did other non-work online stuff. Next thing I know it was lunchtime, and I didn’t even realize how FAMISHED I was XD After lunch I continued my personal online stuff again, then napped to rest a while before kendo. For a while, I considered (again) not going to kendo, but I told myself to just Get Up and Prepare and JUST SHOW UP, because that’s the easiest way to deal with the dilemma of whether to go or not to go. 

And, as usual, I am so glad I went. For some reason, though I didn’t look it, I totally enjoyed and appreciated tonight’s practice. I guess it’s because I was not distracted AT ALL, and my mind wasn’t thinking ahead or whatever, so I was totally, fully there, at the present, just focusing on what I was doing and what I had to do. Looking back, it was almost as if I was tuned out of everything else and it was all about what I was doing. I wasn’t even thinking of having to do well or having to do this and that. I was just doing my best and not even fully being worked up about the thought of having to do my best. It was like doing without doing too much, like I was just, there. *babbles* XD

So now of course my feet hurt because I made a few awkward steps and turns but I just felt them as I came up the stairs tonight when I got home. But I realize that some of tonight’s practice is llike a hazy memory, because it all seemed to breeze by, but not in a way that makes one feel lost or like Time Went Someplace Else And Left Me. 

But anyway in a nutshell, I really appreciate tonight’s practice. And during the ending seiza, I felt That Occasional Strong Feeling That Is Almost “Ecstatic”, for lack of a better term. I don’t think I can talk about it to anyone though, because I don’t think anyone would understand XD It’s just WAY TOO WEIRD. It’s SOMEWHAT the same feeling I get when I am so happy with a book I’m reading, except that it’s like reading contains the “start of the strong feeling” and my post-kendo state is like, the finale XD Weirdness. 

SO MOVING ON, it has been a super great day, and tonight, obviously, I did not go out with my kendo friends. I think I am going through A Certain Phase which I have discussed with my sister, and thankfully, she understood what I meant, because I don’t think anyone else would. Plus, I have been tired and busy so I just needed some time to myself doing nothing that is planned. Of course I have things in mind but I don’t need to follow a schedule of something, and most of what I intend to do are things I only try to Insert into my tight schedule. For instance, I want to keep moving forward with Lirael because I can’t wait to see what will happen to her, plus I want to catch up with my blogs and favorite pages and stuff, and I want to just do whatever. So I think it’s time I get this well-deserved, long-awaited for rest. It’s not even like a vacay, just a nice leisurely time by myself on a normal weekend. 

Perhaps next week I can do this again, possibly with CHOCO ALMOND CROISSANT care of Caring Friends. XD Har har har har. >XD Well, if they DO actually get me some XD Or at least ONE XD I LOVE choco (the food) and I LOVE almonds and I love croissants (especially if they are buttery). 

So the rest of evening is Lirael, chokomochi, gaming and gaming girl, Wiki, personal mails, and whatever. And of course There Shall Be Coffee. XD

(Music is now by Veruca Salt, the softer ones from American Thighs ^.^) 

Early Day (^^,)

Today, I started my day really early (^^,) I mean not because I had to, but just because I wanted to, and was able to XD

Well last night I slept really early (^^,) I was in bed by 10:30! I just read a bit of Sabriel then fell asleep instantly! Partly because it was a very tiring day due to the elections. >.< Sunday night, I had my Sunday syndrome and was wide awake until around 2 AM. I woke up at 7, then went to vote, where we had to spend precious time looking for our line. Then we spent 3.5 hours in line. Then we had lunch, then went home, and I worked for over three hours, did some meditation, then studied for Nihongo. After dinner time I was really sleepy already, so I shut down my computer and watched “The Indian Witch Hunt” at Nat Geo, then watched the Wanderlei and Liddell match in UFC Unleashed. Then I washed up, read a bit of Sabriel, then slept.

So, I was awake at 6:06 (^^,) 

I brushed my teeth, washed my face, chugged down Gatorade (ganun kainit ang panahon - I wake up thirsty), then practiced kihon and kata, then went to do yoga. Before 8 AM, I was already having boiled eggs for breakfast (^^,) Nice start (^^,)

Home Early

I am home early on a Saturday night. I was home at around 10 pm ^.^ Just had dinner with Allan, Zig, and my sister at Charlie’s XD then went home. 

I really planned to get home early because I really need to pack some of my things already. As of now, the only things I have placed outside my room for bringing to the other house are my shinai. And that’s it XD

Nihongo Class Heals XD

Okay, I KNOW that sounded weird XD

But seriously, my last two classes resulted, or perhaps, preceded, major improvements regarding my health. 

I don’t know if it’s because I’m happy when I’m in class, and I’m excited to learn, and I’m laughing a lot, and I am relaxed at the same time, but I do feel great right before, during, and right after class. So last Sunday, I’ve been sick, right, and I hardly slept Sunday night, and was quite feverish when I went to class Monday morning. After Monday class, I noticed that my temperature became lower, though I was still experiencing bodily pains. By Tuesday, the fever was gone, though my headache remained and my sore throat was worse, and my spasmic stabbing muscle pains still occurred, though less frequently. 

Tuesday night I did my homework, and felt more relaxed, so I was able to sleep, and only woke up about 20 minutes before my alarm went off. Then this morning, I was still having a hard time swallowing solid food, but I had breakfast before class. So, class started, and when we took our 10-minute break, I took my meds, and I realized that the sore throat was just, almost gone. I didn’t have a hard time swallowing my medicine at all. By the time class finished, my bodily pains were gone, and my headache occurs much less frequently than before. 

So, it might just be a coincidence of course Xp But in any case, I was thinking it might be the class because I am really enjoying each one so much (^^,) And usually right after class I just suddenly feel much better from my sickness XD 

So, even if I wasn’t able to go to kendo today (I was planning to, last weekend), okay na rin that I feel better now. I hope I’d be fully well enough to attend on Saturday. But tomorrow, normal skeds na ulit! Full hours plus makeup hours >.< I just hope I get what I will be requesting for *crosses fingers*

SLEEP :D

It was only last night, as I shut down after the previous blog entry, that I realized how dead I feel in general, and I only feel “sane” and calm and “whole” and happy when I am about to turn off the lights and go to bed. Just those few minutes before bedtime >.< 

Anyway the good thing is, because I went to bed at 9 last night, read a book for a few minutes, then went to sleep right away, I was able to get several hours of sleep. So, since I’ve gotten the SLEEP part, I am feeling better now. I guess I seriously needed plenty of sleep in one go. I remember having a weird dream about someone though. *brush off* It was too unexpected and too weird. But generally, I had a nice sleep and now I don’t feel so dead anymore (^^,)

Night at Nine

Yes. At 9 PM. I climb to bed. 

I hope I feel better soon. Back to my cheerful musical glowing self.

Happy Yoga

Tonight was one of those moments when I truly enjoyed my yoga (^^,) I mean, I normally do, but usually as I go about my day, the feeling I got from my practice has already dissipated. Tonight though, (I don’t know if it’s because I did today’s yoga in the evening instead of early morning) I felt much more relaxed and “peaceful” after yoga than I normally do. And it was so great that the feeling has carried over until now, and the activities I did after yoga seemed more fun, or the joy of doing them were sort of, more magnified. (Plus! The bothersome pain on my left shoulder is gone, as well as the pain on my right arm! XD)

Happiness (^^,) Or, as someone would put it, peachness! XD 

So, because of tonight’s happy yoga, I will REARRANGE my entire schedule for next week XD (Ang dumi na ng planner ko I swear. Hindi bale cute naman ichura nya sa labas. Malay ba nilang puro correction strips sa loob XD Note: Ang cute din ng correction wipe.)

So anyway back to yoga and skeds. I am guessing it’s also because it’s a holiday, so I didn’t feel hurried. I admit that sometimes I do the corpse pose at the shortest possible time because I have work to do or I’m just feeling like I need time for other things. So, I will be rearranging my schedule so that I can allot a bigger chunk of time (probably as big as the chunk of chocolate I gave to… itself XD) to my yoga, so that I wouldn’t have to hurry or be distracted by the thought of Time. That’s pretty tough, since my Japanese classes are starting on Monday, and I’d have Wednesdays half day, which means my working hours on other week days are extended. So I’m also thinking of doing my yoga in the afternoon or evening instead of morning, to really avoid feeling hurried. Anyway I will be fixing it this weekend. (^^,) 

Nihongo vs Kendo

Of course kendo will win… kaso sayang T.T

The Nihongo course I’m supposed to take next is open but the schedule conflicts with kendo practice >.< 

Sayang T.T

Oh Noes.

It’s late. It’s like a quarter past midnight and I am still in front of the computer, a certain song still on loop >.<

Not that I’m an insomniac tonight - I know that I will fall asleep immediately when my head hits the pillow. In fact, it’s been like that for the past few nights! Isn’t that SUPER GREAT? (^^,)

So, it’s also not because I got addicted to Kanji. In fact, I did not study tonight >.<

Based on one of my previous entries about what to do, yes I was able to do a bit of clutter clearing and I cleaned the area in my room where I keep my bogu, yoga and exercise stuff, and other things. However, I was not able to stick to my plan of bath-dinner-Kanji-sleep. 

As I took a bath, a creative idea came to me, and I got all fired up and started writing down my thoughts as soon as I got out, with a towel still wrapped around my head. I wrote down all I could think of about it, then started the creative thing. 

I decided to skip Kanji and postpone dinner to around 11 pm, the time when my mom comes home from a prayer meeting. Naturally, sleep has been pushed back too, so sana magising pa ako nang maaga at magkaron ng energy for kendo. And if makarating ng kendo, sana mag-last at mag-survive. I will try to take a nap before kendo, it will help. 

So, I chose to focus on the creative thing while the creative juices were flowing, and I knew I should start it already before the excitement dies away. Besides, my horoscope for this week told me that I should find a way for my emotions to have an outlet through creative means hehehe. I’ve been kind of agitated all afternoon and evening that I knew I had to be able to do something to use up all that energy. Obviously I am still releasing some, although I’m feeling less alert now, so I will be climbing to bed in a while. 

But, I’ve started with the creative thing. (^^,) So far I like how it looks. It’s nothing big, really, but I just liked the idea and all the stuff that came to my head as I took a bath.

Will now read a bit of Fruits Basket then sleep na. Oyasumi, minasan! (wave)

Good Morning

This morning, I woke up with the Third Seat in my head (not my bed, though it rhymes) and I was wide awake. I still had half an hour before the alarm went off, so thankfully I managed to still get more sleep and I suddenly became too sleepy to be agitated. 

When the alarm went off, I slept a few minutes more then planned my day in my head. Started my day with yoga, then stepped out into the backyard to practice the kata that I have already forgotten (need help with kata >.<), then got distracted and went from tree to tree eating off the early morning JAMAICAN CHERRIES XD

Happiness (^^,)

Productive Hour

There was a one-hour brownout earlier this afternoon, and I think I was even more productive within that hour (lmao).

I was able to wrap my birthday present for Cecile, and clean my room a bit, put away the Japanese stationery and stickers I bought two weeks ago, take out my dirty clothes, and clean one of my shelves All in an hour :>

I was also able to browse through one of my favorite books by Sandra Cisneros, Loose Woman. I came across some favorite lines. Coming up in the next entries

3 AM

I would like to think that it’s getting better. 

Sunday, or Monday, I slept at 6 AM.

Monday, or Tuesday, I slept at 4 AM.

Last night, or this morning, I slept at 3 AM. 

Later, I intend to sleep by 1 AM at the latest. 

What’s with the insomnia… apart from the frequent occurrence of the magic of cherry blossoms. 

Ohayou!

Ang aga ko ‘no *smug* 

Especially that at this time, I’ve done my yoga, practiced kendo a bit, prepared and had a full breakfast, and have checked my personal emails

I slept late last night, the usual Sunday night syndrome. I turned off the lights and the TV (yes, I watched TV last night) around 12:45 am, but I wasn’t able to fall asleep right away. Eventually I decided that even if I fall asleep late, I will get up early so I can finish things early. 

:D

Sanma and Onions

I didn’t go to kendo practice tonight because I had to do some work. At first, it seemed okay, but as 7 pm drew nearer I got agitated, because I knew that I wasn’t going to be part of the practice and I was somewhat itching to go all of a sudden. Anyway, I just made a promise to myself to plan better next time so I can go to practice no matter what. 

So, my sister just invited me to go to her place for dinner, so I went there around 8, bearing fortune cookies and yogurt jellies. She grilled sanma and oven-roasted onions and eggplants and then added some arugula. We ate these with freshly cooked rice. It was all SUPER good. YUM.

After a while she made coffee, and we ate it with our fortune cookies Mine said “Those who sow blessings shall reap plentiful blessings.” How Year-of-the-Harvest-y Around 11, my dad picked me up, so I’m now back here at home It was a very nice dinner (TENGKOO.)

Sleepover

Last night I had an online meeting… (Please click to continue reading this post.)