Cozy (Long) Weekend (^^,)

It’s my first weekend here in our new home (^^,) 

Last night when Mao and my sister drove me home, my sister mentioned that this new home is really so homey and cozy and the energies are so nice which makes her like to come over. I then realized it’s my first weekend here so yay (^^,) Plus, it’s a long weekend so more yay XD More time to just stay home and more time to study. Perhaps the good energies and the stuff I’m looking forward to doing makes it quicker for me to recover from my Interruption XD Plus of course it helps to remember The Morning Sad as opposed to some other Morning, so all of my selves immediately brush off any related thoughts and ideas, and so the “stuff” are immediately discarded, making it easier and faster for me to move on again. Maybe last night was just quite unexpected and it was like the first time after a long time and I was a little bit disoriented. But anyway I’m feeling better now, so, another yay. XD

High Street High

Sunday was great even though I was not able to stick to my schedule ^.^ I woke up around 2 in the afternoon. Around 4, I studied Nihongo and was planning to do yoga at 5. However, Mao and my sister came by to drop off some stuff for the garage sale, and asked me if I wanted to go with them to High Street. The warning signs of SHOPPING flashed through my mind, but I just decided I won’t spend, and went with them. 

Then I bought stuff from Lush. 

Then we went to Gourdo’s for pizza, coffee, and gelato (^^,) I LOVE Gourdo’s pizzas (^^,) And coffee. And gelato. And yes, the pizzas XD

Then we spent quite a long time at Fully Booked, Mao at the music area and my sister and I checking out the books. Checked out Furubaa too but the next episode wasn’t there yet. So I just bought a case for Hinamori and super pretty notebooks. Then we passed by the Coffee Bean before going home around 11. 

I then realized that the whole of High Street emanates with all these pleasant emotions that they make you feel like it’s great to spend and shop XD 

Picked Up

Was it melancholy? Sadness? Longing?

I am not quite sure because I don’t think I picked any of it up. Perhaps I was also wrapped up in my own thoughts and emotions.  

Oh Noes.

It’s late. It’s like a quarter past midnight and I am still in front of the computer, a certain song still on loop >.<

Not that I’m an insomniac tonight - I know that I will fall asleep immediately when my head hits the pillow. In fact, it’s been like that for the past few nights! Isn’t that SUPER GREAT? (^^,)

So, it’s also not because I got addicted to Kanji. In fact, I did not study tonight >.<

Based on one of my previous entries about what to do, yes I was able to do a bit of clutter clearing and I cleaned the area in my room where I keep my bogu, yoga and exercise stuff, and other things. However, I was not able to stick to my plan of bath-dinner-Kanji-sleep. 

As I took a bath, a creative idea came to me, and I got all fired up and started writing down my thoughts as soon as I got out, with a towel still wrapped around my head. I wrote down all I could think of about it, then started the creative thing. 

I decided to skip Kanji and postpone dinner to around 11 pm, the time when my mom comes home from a prayer meeting. Naturally, sleep has been pushed back too, so sana magising pa ako nang maaga at magkaron ng energy for kendo. And if makarating ng kendo, sana mag-last at mag-survive. I will try to take a nap before kendo, it will help. 

So, I chose to focus on the creative thing while the creative juices were flowing, and I knew I should start it already before the excitement dies away. Besides, my horoscope for this week told me that I should find a way for my emotions to have an outlet through creative means hehehe. I’ve been kind of agitated all afternoon and evening that I knew I had to be able to do something to use up all that energy. Obviously I am still releasing some, although I’m feeling less alert now, so I will be climbing to bed in a while. 

But, I’ve started with the creative thing. (^^,) So far I like how it looks. It’s nothing big, really, but I just liked the idea and all the stuff that came to my head as I took a bath.

Will now read a bit of Fruits Basket then sleep na. Oyasumi, minasan! (wave)

Tsukareta

>.<

Sometimes when I am tired like this I wish I can

just

succumb

to

someone’s

embrace.

T.T

Anyway, pagod lang yan. Kasi naman di ba. Sana lahat kayo matino. 

Haha biglang nag-angst. 

Anyway, again, pagod lang yan. Ang katapat nyan ay:

• Clutter-clearing (baka naman mawalan na ko ng gamit nyan lmao) 
• Nice warm bath
• Kanji

Of course, it would still be nice if the knight in shining armor came riding in his valiant horse. Or the knight in bogu riding an Audi. Muhahahahhaa. Or an available knight in bogu riding some vehicle I dare not mention. Or kahit simpleng Prince of Persia lang. (LMAO) Prince of Persian cat. Mogget? Isdatchu? Didn’t you have a Persian parent? (Mogget replies: ngaw.)

I think this is all partly due to shift that I sense on an ethereal level. Like some big shift is brewing, carrying with it big, unexpected changes which are not a bad thing, but are disorienting in its own fashion. 

So, time for clutter-clearing. 

*sighs the way Punchy sighs in Petville* (or, well, all Petville pets do that)

Bowl of Sugar Needed

Right now, I want to stuff myself in am bowl of sugar >.<

In any case, I just need to remember that certain things happen so we can learn from them. So tonight, I learned never to disrupt my natural flow of energies again by listening to the chaos of voices in my head. And see, I did not listen to my runes again. They told me to do by not doing. And I yapped away, speaking for each of the many voices. 

But again, lesson learned :p If I didn’t learn this now, I could have learned this some other less favorable time. 

Now, to do:

1. Clean up my room. 

2. Clean up and rearrange my bookshelf. 

3. Take an nth bath for the day. 

4. Study Kanji. 

5. Play games or watch anime, whichever I feel like doing after studying. 

Every now and then, these things sort of shake my shoulders and tell me to focus on more important things. So, time to clean up my room, and my head in the process. Will listen to sweet and happy music (^^,)

Backyard Blessing

This afternoon, as I made coffee for myself and sliced the last of the edam with peppers and the aged edam, I looked out to the backyard. The wind started blowing softly and it felt so nice (^^,)  I realize how thankful I am that we have a huge backyard with trees, plants, flowers, and lots of birds making it their home (and bats at night). It feels nice to have meals there (as my sister and I usually do when she eats here for lunch or breakfast) or to just sit out and have tea. Sometimes I just stay out to enjoy the wind and the sun and the sound of leaves, and it feels great because it calms me down and fills me with happy energies (^^,) It also reminds me how I love the weather and how I love living in an Asian country (^^,) 

Love

So, I am doing my best to stretch my endurance to last practice because I love kendo and our loveable sensei has taught us and helped us so much. 

:)

I was feeling rather bloated and pained yesteday because I was so PMSing. As early as suburi, I wanted to lie down and let myself be sucked in my oblivion (oblivion-oblivion, not Oblivion the game, though that would also be lovely ). So anyway we had our waza, then shiai. I won again yay I am so grateful for our sensei. *happy energies* Despite my shaking arms and hands because I was so tired towards the end of my match, I managed to still remain standing up. I could hear supportive cheers from Martin the eggplant and Valens the boar which lightened up my near-death feeling so I walked back to my spot gleefully, though it didn’t show because I was simply a pale, panting girl  

On the second hour of practice we had ji-geiko and I was fortunate enough to be paired with our sensei (a physically painful yet awaited moment) as we kept turning to our right for various matches. My right hand now bears a small lumpy bruise because of several kote hits (very quickly, one after the other) and I smashed onto his unmoving and unperturbed self a few times (and it felt like running into a very sturdy, deeply rooted tree while I was a very small weak hungry child) like I did with Kikuchi-san, but I managed to have one kote hit and sensei repeatedly said, “nice!” while nodding his head quickly. *happy energies* 

Then, my feared part came; like last week, we were asked to line up against the seniors and we repeatedly did several kirikaeshi and men-uchi and then another set of kirikaeshi and I felt like I was going to faint again. Igarashi-sensei stood behind me a couple of times and observed my kiai and made me do long ones so I wanted to ask him if he just wanted me to hand over my lungs. Anyway I managed to live, and I just keep thinking that despite all the pain in my arms and legs now, I will someday be able to do it with less and less difficulty.

Country Hell

So, yeah, that was on loop yesterday. 

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Replenish

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